this is for everyone in the server run planet,
guys, the damage i've caused hurt you all, but that doesnt mean I dont care about you guys, i'm sorry, and you dont have to forgive me, that's your choice, I feel like the true monster and a villain for what I did, and I mean it, and covid, i'm sorry for all the things i've done to you and made you go through, same for the rest of you, but know that the things i've told about myself are true, i just wanted a way to tell you guys what i'm like, how i feel, and tell you guys my life, but i was too afraid to open up, i was scared, i'm always scared, i'm ashamed about who i am, i don't know how to change, i don't know how to feel, i'm lost without you guys, i'm feeling like i'm being pulled away from the people i care about, just like how i've been pulled away from those who i've cared about throught my life, and you know, in a way, i'm like spinel, my feelings that are all over the place, i put myself down so others don't have to, it's hard for me to change, and being abandoned by people i care about, just know that i'm sorry for the stuff i did, the things i said, and how much i put you guys through, i just want you guys to help me change, i'm saying all of this from deep down in my heart, what you guys want to do or say to me is up to you, and i know i have a long way to go to gain trust back......